Credit check.

I want to talk, or write I guess, a little about credit. And I don't mean credit cards, or credit ratings, or anything financial. I mean being ascribed with something, being aknowledged for something that was done or something that happened, and I want to talk about it when you get credit for something in a good light.

What is it worth? Do we really need it? How do you feel when someone else gets credit for something you accomplished? What do you do when you get credit for something someone else did?

I'm not really sure what the answers to these questions are, but it is something that I have been thinking a lot about lately. Issues like this have come up at work and in social life. And it hasn't been anything big but it little things have happened that have made me stop and think.

I know this is vague... I know I'm proposing a lot of questions and not even really telling you all what I'm thinking or why I'm thinking it. What it sort of comes down to is being noticed. I wonder sometimes if the things I'm doing are being noticed. And I wonder sometimes about the ideas that I have that are carried out by someone else, are they getting credit that I deserve? I am really not lacking in getting credit. I think that people at work are recognizing that I am working hard and that I have some great ideas that are making a difference. I like that getting that aknowledgement but I don't do things for the aknowledgement.

However, when I pass ideas on to be helpful, I do feel a little jealous when I don't get the credit. SO what does that mean?

Facebook Apps!

40 Most Useful Facebook Applications

According to some other people.

What does everybody else think??

It is late now and I want to go to bed but I want to come back and explore and discuss Facebook, its applications, and its uses.

Back at it.

Back at it. Back to blogging. Back to dieting. Back to staying in touch. Back to listening to my own mind. Back to counting points. Back to improving myself. Back to being my best. Back to seeing the scale go down. Back to writing. Back to taking care of myself-- physically and mentally.

It is definitely time.

Has anybody else ever had the feeling where you are so busy and having fun all of the time but somehow, you still feel a little bit lonely? And you still feel sort of empty inside?

And it has nothing to do with the people you are spending time with or the things you are doing-- because both of which are great. But, you just feel like somethings missing?

Syracuse Gossip

So I was up at Cuse this past weekend for my very first Syracuse University Homecoming and my goodness, was it spectacular! I have more I want to write on that topic but I just need to throw an open question out there to my fellow Syracuse loves who are out in blog world.

There were rumors throughout the weekend of a Syracuse gossip Web site similar to gossip girl or to the infamous (at least in my apartment this past year) Fordham U's FUrez Hilton. I'm totally pumped about this gossip site and I SO want to find it online. Last winter, some pretty cool girls that I know pretty well started a Syracuse gossip blog but due to the craziness of senior year and how little they cared about anything besides having fun... the blog fizzled.

http://surezhillton.blogspot.com/

SUrez HILLton... they thought they were clever.

Anybody know the new blog URL??

I am tempted to keep the car in drive.

"Four more exits til my apartment,
but I am tempted to keep the car in drive,
and leave it all behind."

Today, as I drove to work I passed the sign that marks that Syracuse is 132 miles away. I drive by it every day on my way to work. But today, for some reason, I had the urge to just keep driving those 132 miles. Screw work. Screw everything I had to do that day. I just wanted to be at school. I just wanted to be at the place that has been my home for the past 4 years.

I've been wondering when its going to hit me that the summer is over and we're moving into fall. To be working full time in the fall is unchartered territory. For the first time in 16 years? 12 of high school and 4 of college? At least 16 years. And for all intents and purposes, for the first time in the span of my life that is covered by my memory, I will NOT be returning to school this fall.

WEIRD.

So John Mayer, I know in your song you were talking about going to your apartment and I was driving to work. And I know that you had 4 more exits to get to where you need to go and I only drive 2 exits on the highway. BUT, I sure was tempted to keep the car in drive and leave it all behind.

I miss you Cuse.

Who are you calling skinny?

So my girl, Principessa, e-mailed me a hysterical story today about how she got in a fight with a girl at Acropolis Pizza in Syracuse. Principessa was there late night, waiting for a friend who was getting some grub and decided to sit at a table and took off her shoes (I can relate to that!) and put them on the table with her purse.

From a nearby table she hears someone bitching to all her friends about how this "spoiled skinny white bitch thinks she can throw her shit everywhere." HOLD THE PHONE. Now, what caught Principessa's ears at this comment? The uncalled for need to call her spoiled when the girl doesn't even know her? No. The unwarranted claim that Principessa is a bitch? Nope, try again. The unneccessary need to bring race into the issue? Not it either.

This girl called her SKINNY! And Principessa was PUMPED.

For those of you who don't know, Principessa has been working with me to try and lose weight also. Last time I saw her, she looked AMAZING so she is def. doing a good job... enough so that randoms are calling her skinny-- go Principessa!!

How did she respond, you may be wondering. Principessa politely and rationally said to the girl, "Excuse me, but I can hear you talking. You are right. I shouldn't have my shoes on the table and I will gladly move them. However, you could have just asked me to instead of talking that way." Not only do I love my friends for having amazing responses like that to nasty girls trying to start shit. BUT I also love my friends for relaying stories like this to me, not for the fact that they almost got in a fight, but for the fact that they were called skinny!

I cannot wait until Homecoming and my fateful return to Syracuse to visit Principessa and hopefully, we can both get called skinny together :)

Ugh, I need help.

Internetians, I've been SOOO bad at blogging.

I've also been so bad at dieting.

On Thursday, when I weighed myself I gained 1.5 lbs in the week. Which I figured is okay because it was my birthday weekend and I let myself splurge, but I've had a hard time getting back on track even a week later. I have no motivation to go to the gym. I've had mild success and I feel great and I need to get myself back on track.

If anybody has any words of wisdom or advice for whenever they get in a period like this, please let me know!

I told myself that it was okay that I went a little slack for a while because I am trying to make this a lifestyle thing and a long term project so if there is a few days in a row that I have less energy and miss the gym, that is okay... but I just need to be able to then after those days GET BACK to the gym. Tuesday I couldn't get myself to go to the gym then Wednesday I had a mediocre day at the gym and then I took a walk after work. Thursday I had a great workout but then Friday I couldn't get myself to go! Today I'm at home so I didn't do anything athletic and ate a little too much via snacking and a cookout and a wine tasting... but I need to kick my butt back into gear because I don't feel good right now.

Help!